a kinda new life

jsut went out to check the new fishing place before. it's a good place for fishing. i'll go there next week.
it seems i start to miss a lot of things since i moved out from my parents' place.
and also coz of the money problem, i had to find a job as a indian restaurant waiter. but finally, i didn't get that job, coz of the terrible salary.
1 week before, i was kinda bored of spending the whole day on sleeping. one night, i was just reading some website as normal. and i found a guy online who sales fishing tools. it was just like a

light bulb suddently lights in my mind. the next 2 day, i jsut went to Changfeng Park for fishing with my new toys after read some article about fishing online. yeah, the first day i got nothing at all. but i went fishing the day after that as well. finally, i got a little piece of fish. (the little white cat is Banana, my new friend.)














anyways, that's how i started to get crazy of fishing these days.

on the way back home, i passed by the place where my grandma used to live. it changed a lot. there're more shopping mall and a new subway station. the street is wider. but the old building which my grandma used to live is still there. and also some old stores which i used to see are still there as well. it remembers me a lot of things when i was a little kid. yeah, i miss my grandma a lot. i dunno how my grandma'll feel if she could see what's going on with me now. "happy? angry?"

oh, i miss my german gf a lot as well. it's already 2 months now since she left shanghai. i could still remember the last time we kissed. i don't really know which kinda relationship we have now. but i love her anyways. i was thinking of her when she was sleeping in my bed, when we went out at the middle of night just for a walk and met a drunk guy who's sleeping in the street and sang "the man who sold the world" together in the street in a really windy night. sometimes, i think maybe i couldn't get her love at all, maybe should jsut give up. but finally, i jsut found i could not. she's jsut like always singing in my mind. Oh, i read that "Abolin Abolin Abolin.... fish fish fish... " book a lot of times! :P

Moving

It’s the first time that I’m gotta move out from my parents’ place.

Yeah, it’s common for most western people. But in China, Kids start to live by himself since they’re married in regular.

When I was in the taxi after the meeting of the landlord last night, something sad just came out of my mind, and filled my body.

I’m thinking about if that means something when a guy grows up and lives in his own place. I just couldn’t believe what is happening right now is this fast. Since I started to work 3 years ago, I thought about moving out a lot of times. But I always gave it up before because some different problems.

But anyways I shouldn’t be sad! Life is gotta be more beautiful. I want a bigger house, a nice car, a better skill….. yeah, it’s gotta be nice!

fuk off

I spend all night with my stupid video game
I spend all day in my noisy room
I just don't want to do anything
I just don't want to think about anything

I think I almost forget everything
but when all the friends leave me alone
when night comes through
where I should go?

A kid's dream

this was what i wanted from my dad at all.
but i was not a lucky kid, this dream was not achieved on me.
But i promise, i will go to see the sea with my kid.
I will!

Loneliness makes me happier

No warmth left here
No body here tonight
I can have a good sleep without lights
You have No responsibility
also can think it's never happened
after the happiness when You are tired
where will You be at?

Loneliness makes me happier
enjoy the ambience at the moment
your hands are so cold, there will always be a man wanna warm them up for You.
You won't remember everytime I was pretending I was happy
when You get low tide, when You cry
I will be here